We all have habits that help us get through the day. Some of us also have a tendency to not stick to these habits, and there are countless articles about why that is harmful. Personally, lack of regular habits or a routine have an extremely negative impact on my general peace of mind. It is important for me to have something constant in life, in the form of a routine or a habit.
Now what is interesting is that for the last six or seven years, I have spent the majority of life in ‘figuring things out.’ This is such a synonymous phrase for our generation, isn’t it? But this is the fact. How does one have a constant element then? Friends, family, partners all have their significant roles in life. The essence of self awareness lies in how you construct the time when you’re absolutely alone. In the last decade, I moved cities, lost and gained friends, changed jobs, learned to live away from family, taught myself to explore cultures, developed a personality for me to fall back on in times of distress and more. Living in transition helped me in more ways than I can possibly articulate.
Despite of all these lovely things that I learned from different phases of life, I have found myself extremely dejected, clinically depressed and hopeless. We all have days of darkness and self-loathing where a pity party seems more fun than actually getting out and exploring a new cafe. It was during one of those days when Toronto was covered in snow and extreme cold warnings that I took out my old journal- the only one I had carried from home. I realised that my constant element in the bumpy ride of life has been writing. As dramatic as it sounds, writing has always come to my rescue.
I have always had a love-hate relationship with writing. I have mostly hated all of my written pieces but have learned to appreciate them for they provide me with a rearview mirror. Reading them now enables me to understand, dismiss, evaluate, appreciate the phases I have been through. It is cathartic, frankly, to see how far you have come. It also helps you identify new lessons that you need to learn and old ones that you need to retire.
This blog too is part of that effort, just more inclusive. I am sure that anyone reading this would have valuable additions to what I shared and I am really looking forward to reading all your thoughts.
Thank you for reading! This is the end of Part 1. In Part 2, I will talk about the lessons that I learned after graduating from college to the day I bought the domain for this blog. Stay tuned!